No matter how much I complained in the last few weeks of travelling a lot, I still find myself looking for places to explore. The only problem is, it is not fun when you are doing this alone. It is not fun if you don't have a friend with you to share your silent screams or your ice-cream. It is not fun if you don't have someone to steal from his coffee and if your someone is not stealing form your rainbow cake.
|Caerlaverock Castle, 2011|
When I travel for conferences, it is mostly ok because there will be colleagues to give some level of company. But when I want to explore the chateaus of France or spend the new year's eve in Sydney... being by myself is a bit sad. It is also sad that most of my best friends would need to do too much paperwork to come over and visit me or to meet somewhere in the middle.
As now I am sure that the real source of my back pain is totally psychological, I don't think there is any obstacle for me for travelling. So should I really find a way to be in Santa Barbara at the beginning of November despite I will be all by myself (in a conference), or should I take some rest and plan for the new year's eve? I think the real question is, should I force myself to learn how to enjoy the world by myself or should I better find a good travel buddy?
I think I will do the second. Whenever I tried to change my core, it never worked, and moreover I felt like
I was betraying myself. Hence I don't want to change my 'I like to share every f.cking happiness in my life' attitude with 'I don't need others to enjoy the life' approach. Because I need others. I need my people to enjoy the life. To be honest, I need my people to bear the life. I can survive with no money and tiny bit of food, as long as I have my people around me.
|Hardly Strictly Bluegrass, 2015|
So... yes, I better find a good travel buddy! Preferably someone whom I don't have to pull all the time, who can take some initiative, adventurous, fun, open minded, optimistic and still goes after responsible decisions and also likes photography. Uh... I want too much?